Sometimes what you say, do or achieve has no significance to the outside world. Only when you think you want to rant about your sorry state of affairs that people take notice and become Avatars of Advicerama. I am not going to write whether advice is good or not.
I have gone through my own share of ups and downs and the other kind(which I dont know what it is called). I have tried to be very receptive to subtleness that life communicates through various means. I have tried to be mindful of repercussions that could evolve as a result of arrogant and not-well-thought-through type of decisions. I have been scared of making intellectual decisions because I have found myself time-in and time-out to be the recipient of the invisible help at the 11th hour.
I am again not going to talk about free will or the will of the Invisible Invincible Incarnations that people call by different names.
I am going to be random and never to the point directly or intentionally in this post. I just want to be a renegade who has tried normal methods of follow-up, introspection, evaluation and self-appraisal but has consistently been mis-represented or not clearly understood. No matter how much I try, I return to sleep thinking I had to compromise because I need to survive the day owing to responsibilities.
We are indeed a victim of our past decisions that holds the future down to an extent you wonder when will there be light(forget the tunnel), inside a room where there is electricity available, light source fixtures in working condition but plagued by unscheduled power cuts.
As I sit here compelled to write something positive which is usually a feature of my posts, I am overwhelmed by the status-quo of many things that have overshadowed a lot of good things I am continuing to witness in other walks of life.
I have been called arrogant and all sorts of names that I want things yesterday. While I have never claimed credit to any goodwill gesture I have done, I have not whined about not having the best of best either.
It is clear people do see or take note of you when you are not in the best of your spirits, behaviour or mood. It sort of seems cynical of me to think of a human mind ever ready to pounce on something that is worthy of being a case of judgemental prognosis(forget if the last two words actually make sense). But then what does it teach you? It probably teaches the same lesson it taught you the day before, the week before, the month before…and it will continue teaching you the same until you are down on your knees begging for mercy or get a brain flash erasing of any neuron-power that can help you fight the thought of resistance against the very crux of why that lesson is being delivered to you.
Alright, digressing….as much as there is a philosophical answer to any situation life, it more often than not a lasting solution for someone who is looking for a practical way of dealing with things. There should definitely be a better method to the madness called ‘I get it and it is correct’. There should be a more natural way of catering to the ‘today’s mind’ that which typical self-help books cant cater to. Today’s mind needs exercises that constantly evolve to meet the threshold criteria that compels one to progress in three directions, namely tactical, logical and in accordance with common sense…..and it has to be at the intersection of all the three.
I offer no solution as I am looking for one.
I hold no grudges as they have not helped me much.
I have no arrogance as I know what goes around comes around.